I'll be honest with you all Ive been hiding. I recently received a not so nice comment about my Rozie here on my blog and it scared me. I debated shutting it down, removing it from the public, etc. In the end i decided to keep doing what I'm doing, and that is holding my head high and taking everything with stride.
Someone commented to me that Rozie was a punishment from G-d . When i saw this it shocked me, then i was sad, then i went all momma bear and tried to convince my husband to use all his computer skills to find this wimpy anonymous commenter and i would show them what a punishment from G-d really is. Then i calmed down and started to think "is this a punishment from G-d"(Don't worry i don't think that i was just thinking) anyways as a Jew i s not so much in our thought process to believe in Punishment from Hashem. We really don't believe in the fire and brimstone philosophy, its just not the Jewish way. We believe everything in this world, the good and what does not feel like good, is all from Hashem, so it must be good. Whith that said what about Tikkun, repairing, healing, fixing. We believe that if your children have been sick or you've been in a terrible accident that one may need a Tikkun, so you check your Mezuzahs and your Tefillin, or give more Tzedakah.All this to hopefully "repair" what Hashem has in store for you, but does a child born with special needs need a Tikkun? Should i have checked my Mezuzahs after Rozie was born? The answer is simple, No. Hashem has made this world so wonderful and unique and there must be many types of people to create this wonderful place we all live.My Rozie doesn't need a repair and she is not a punishment, but part of Hashem's great big plan and i'm so happy that our family has been blessed from Hashem with the huge Brocha of raising sucha beautiful Neshama in this world, and hey maybe if i'm wrong and i am being punished i'll take my punishment everyday with the biggest smile on my face. Everyday we merit in the Yiddishe and Chassidishe Nachas of raising our daughter and sons in the ways of Torah, to chuppa, and good deeds.